So long my sun

So long to the sun, for it was a lovely day today. I just looked out the window and noticed almost all the sunlight is gone. I often wonder why do I thrive off of the sunlight. I feel so alive when the rays warm me and hit me just right. I claim to be a night person, but for some reason I love to take drives on a really nice day with the sunroof and all the windows down and just race after the sun. It just enlightens my soul and wake me up inside. I love the night sky dearly as well as the beautiful moon, but something the sun gives me is nothing that the night sky can. I find beauty in all nature around me. When things are broken that's why they are most beautiful. Flawless is so boring to me. I crave the raw and rugged along with the real. I live for the real things and never the fake. I find comfort in city skylines and just the surroundings in the city period. I could see myself there. I am so tired of the suburbs. Yes it does hold it's own beauty but I am in love with the city lights. "I want those flashing lights" I want to go where the people are, where the adventure and excitement is, but I am always too shy to go after it. "I want to run into the sun and never come back" I just want to be high , floating away from this world. "Lights will guide you home and ignite your bones" I yearn for so much more from this life, I just don't know how to start. What road do I follow. Am I doing it right?
I just want to get lost and never be found. I don't want my feet planted on the ground.