Nothing but realness?

So, this Saturday I got a chance to hang out with on the few best friends that I still have from school. We always have fun when we are together. We just went and got our nails done, grabbed some lunch, and went to see a movie, got ice cream and just talked about life. It seems we are on the same page and at the same point in our lives. We both are single, hard working females with a good head on our shoulders. You would think we would have it all, but that's far from the truth. I mean yes we work hard and earn the things that we do have, but we are missing the things that can not be bought in life. One topic that came up for discussion quite a few time was relationships. Yes, that. Rather than the lack of relationships that we don't have. Neither one of us is the type to go out and sleep with random dudes just because we need it. We rather save ourselves for something more than that. Call me old fashioned but I'd rather be in a relationship with some on have something stable and monogamist with that person. I am not down for the games, either you are sleeping with me and only me or nothing at all. Anyways I digress, I would want more than anything to be in a committed relationship with someone. Now I am not saying I am going to jump for the first male that comes around harping that same old line "I want to be with you" bullshit. I want someone who is like minded. I would want us to share the same common goals and interest as me. I want to be able to have deep intellectual discussions, sit and watch movies together, hit up a record store, go shopping, have conversations about our past and what we want for the future,spark an L or two and just chill. I want something REAL but that my be hard to find in a world full of fakes and bullshitters. Yes I am human and I do get lonely but I don't want to latch on to the first unhealthy man that comes into my life. I have made that mistake before, I am older and much more wiser, I am not looking to travel down that road again. I am paying very close attention to all red flags that are being raised this time around, I am going to know when to separate myself and detach from any situation causing DRAMA. I am not for it. I am a very peaceful and calm person, being involved in drama just isn't my thing. I have a horrible track record as far as relationships go and just males in general. Yeah I know I am still young blah blah, but why does it seem that from the males that I meet, nothing ever really becomes of it. I came close to love a total of two times only to have the ill backhand in the face. I got the shit smacked out of me need less to say. I guess I should be worried about my inner and outer self. I don’t understand it at all. I am just tired of hearing my friends tell me,"Oh it’s not you, you are beautiful, smart, funny, caring, honest, kind,creative,interesting,fantastic etc...etc..." Well if I am all these things how come they don’t ever stick around. I am sitting here wrecking my brain trying to figure this one out. I don’t ask for much, I don’t want your money, I don’t want to drive your car. I have my own money, my own car...I am not trying to be on some "Independant Woman, throw yah hands up at me tip" but I am saying if i really am feeling you none of that shit is relavant. Your money, your car, your status in the "hood" doesn’t mean shit to me.I guess maybe I am asking too much. I am not looking to get married over night, I am not trying to be your wife, but if it gets to that level so be it then, but that’s not my goal from the jump. I just want something pure, innocent, and real. Just real attraction, similiar to puppy love you could even say. I want to miss someone and I want to be missed as well when we aren’t around or if we have spoke to each other all day. I want to have late night conversations about nothing, but not even care as long as I am talking to that person. I want to hold hands and go out and just relax with one another. I want to get in someone’s mind and find the beauty in there soul. I am just wanting to REAL.
Is it Real son?
Is it really real son?
Let me know it's real son if it's really real.
Something I can feel son
Roll it up and kill one
Let me know it's real son if it's really real.