Back......

Well I am back....from a lil' bit of break. Mostly due to me forgetting my password and fuckin' Google making shit difficult for me to get back into this account....but anyways I am back.
I changed the layout a bit...hope yah like it. Well.....alot has happened since I've last been able to post. I know the quote "Change is inevitable" is true...but shit, why do things have to change so much. Between October to now.....I've lost my older cousin, which affected the family greatly due to how he passed away. We are still trying to put the pieces together. I lost my job. =( Yeah yeah I know we're in recession but I am still struggling to find work. I've been out since December. I am thinking seriously about going back to school but I still owe on student loans.....so >_< ! I had an interview last week for administrative assistant, it's the perfect job....good pay, good benefits, good atmosphere, relaxed casual dress! The damn chick at the front desk had on jeans! My kinda job. Don't get me wrong I do like dressing up but.....why do it when you don't have to. Anyways....our fam has been facing alot of problems as well. My stepfather has been having alot of health issues since his heart attack a few years ago....along with being behind in bills.....blah blah etc. It's been a stressful few months for me. I've been pretty levelheaded for the most part I think. I am kinda used to things being a mess. I get nervous when they are normal. I mean I guess normal is good, but it's scary to me. I've gotten back to eating healthy and exercising which is something I've been needing to so but just kept putting it off for the longest. I am trying to get my plans together as an "Adult". I am trying to move out by the end of this year or beginning of next year, something along those lines. I don't know, I just took a look at everything around me. I've adjusting people in my life, cutting some off, getting closer to others. I don't care for the negative energy. I just been isolating myself....call me a cold bitch...but I have no time for bullshit right about now. I have my own issues...I don't want another subscription thank you very much.
I need to smookkkeeeeeeee!!!! Since I've been on my job hunt a blunt hasn't touched these lips.
So once I do get a job, a victory blunt will definitely be rolled up. I miss alot of my other friends. Like Katie. I miss her alot. I know she has her own things going on, but I relate to her so much...now if only she smoked she would be perfect =) ily Katie Batie. I can't wait til my bestie Jas moves!!! Hurry yah ass up son! She will be closer to me. We are gonna be in yah area causing mass hysteria!!! From Jersey to NYC ....oh boy! Anyways...that's enough of my rambling...I'll be back shortly.